tell it how it is.

I am the kind of person who says it how it is. If I don't like someone I generally don't hide it, or care if they know. I have realized how much I have not said what I have felt, but I am working on it. I don't know about you, but I would so much rather if someone not like me just tell me. That is so much better than going around thinking that we are good friends and them actually hate me. I have realized how much I would rather just have a couple of good friends who are real and there for me than a bunch of friends who don't care. So more than anything I would like to thank people who are good friends, not just to me, but good friends or even just good people. You don't find them very often.


and the first one now will later be last

I don't know about you, but personally I love Bob Dylan. Every time I turn on his music my mother isn't quite as excited about it as I am. I think he has an amazing voice, but I can also understand why people don't like him. I feel the same way about Joanna Newsom as well. I could listen to her for quite some time and be perfectly content, but not all people could.



So, yesterday I went shopping with my sister and parents. I was so excited because my sister told me she would take me to cascade and get me a present. I didn't realize how big of a present she was talking about until we got there. She was willing to spend $240 on me! She got me a new glove not just any glove but a buffalo nokona!



I'm not sure if you ever liked or like school, but it is not my cup of tea, that is for sure! I find my self distracted by everything. Thinking about it seems to bother me, because shouldn't I want to be there? I mean that is my future, shouldn't I want to put as much into it as I can? I am currently a senior in high school and am so grateful for it being my last year. But thinking about it, is college going to be that much better? Why is it that college is viewed so much better than high school? Because you are finally on your own? I mean I have been thinking about that a lot, because don't get me wrong, I am very excited for college and moving to Portland, but why? Maybe because I will be in a big city, which I love big cities! Maybe because I will finally not feel like the baby of the family completely anymore? Maybe I am excited to move on with my life? I am really not sure, but whatever the reason might be I am grateful for it(:



So, this week was the start to possibly my last softball season ever, which is why I haven't been blogging much. Monday and Tuesday were tryouts, then the rest of the week was practice. I have played softball since I was nine. So this is my ninth year playing, which just seems crazy to me that I have been playing that long. Last year was probably my favorite year of all though. It had its ups and downs but its always nice to end the year well, which ended the best it could have. We had nine seniors on the team, so this year is like starting all over with just three returning starters and new coaches as well. I wasn't sure how this year would go, but so far I am enjoying it. Its nice to be able to relax and just play the game. I think everybody should have something that they enjoy doing to just relax and get away. Welcome to mine!